i never new i could hurt like this

I never knew I would hurt like this

When my tears feel like acid burning my flash

This loneliness I feel is overwhelming

Neither oceans nor stars could befriend this broken heart

I never knew I could hurt like this

Where every day is a struggle to catch a breathe

And every moment of light brings sadness and shame

I never found a scapegoat to blame

For this pain that drives me to extinction

Happiness or sadness I cannot make that distinction

I never knew I could hurt like this

That the pain would pierce my heart like a thousand needles

Each one leaving marks of shame that could never be removed

I never knew that loneliness would be the death of my spirit

That life would lose its meaning and its beauty

I never knew I would hurt like this

Where with every fake smile

And with every moment I say I’m good

My soul is thrown deeper into an endless cycle of nothing

A cycle of great acting and pretending that all is alright

A cycle of torture and pain from words unsaid

Words that haunt my mind till the brink of despair

I never knew I could hurt like this

Where every breath grasped is a moment stolen

From the essence of my being

With every day that rises and every night that howls at the moon

The shadows of despair haunt every space of my being

I never knew I could hurt like this

Where the echoes of laughter have ceased to exist

And the torment of silence reigns supreme

I never knew that my existence could be meaningless

And in vein

I never knew I could hurt like this