MOURNING I HATE YOU

Mourning i hate you 

I hate the fact that you inspire fear 

That you let reckless emotions

Cascade through my body senselessly 

Like molten magma in a volcano

They bubble to erupt at a moments notice

I am stuck in an endless an cycle of confusion 

My eyes are constantly tearing 

These tears stop me from seeing through your lies

Everything may have a time and place

But dear mourning I hate you 

I pray you never enter this space 

For if i feel your presence

 The essence of the one i love has been extinguished 

And i may never feel their warmth again

For if I feel your essence

I know my chest cavity will be plunged open 

With the jaws of life 

And my heart will be reaped from my chest

Mourning I hate you 

I hate that you let these acidic tears 

Flow down my cheeks

Corroding and burning everything they touch 

Including my smile 

This smile that paints an a perfect picture 

During an imperfect moment 

I despise that you come through like a hurricane 

And leave me speechless and bloodied 

Floating in a void that seems unavoidable

Dear mourning I hate you