i cant let go of the past

I can’t let go of the past

The memories shared are stuck in my mind

Like they were encrypted yesterday

The sounds of the past and the glory of yesterday shall forever haunt me

Because the fear of being nothing more than what I did

Burns brighter then the sun on a midsummer  day

As tears drip from my eyes the things we did flash before me

I can’t let go of the past

As  the thoughts of what happened come back to mind

Crashing like waves at sea with the force of a thousand soldiers

I’m torn apart by the thought that my future will never

Because of what my past is

As I try to lie to myself my future slowly drifts away

And I can no longer see my past

I am stuck in a black whole of despair trying to console

This being that never existed, never lived and will never be

I can’t let go of the past

Yet the past is gone and what if lingers in my mind

Forever taunting me with my failure as a person

Tears fill my eyes because there is no one out there to share my pain

I have people around me but the thought of being alone burns brighter than most thoughts

I can’t let go of the pain

That seems to grow every single time I close my eyes

This is my true self stranded in an endless cycle of misery and self-doubt

The beauty that was a blessing slowly drifts away leaving an empty shell

That is stuck in the past

I can’t let go of the past